Artful Update

So once again it has been a while since I've posted anything. Not much has changed, although I'm working really hard on figuring out my disordered eating habits and fixing them. I hit a bump now with Lent and fasting...it confused me so asked for advice. Now though for some reason my voice of reason seems to be dissipating and urges to harm myself again being to flood in. I feel like the biggest hypocrite lately I've been doing a lot of church retreats and helping out where I can, yet at time I still find myself for no reason wanting to self injure just to feel the happiness that I've lost. Now don't get me wrong here I love the feeling I get when I am on these retreats and helping out but it doesn't last. I long to belong. College is my goal there I can receive help and make new friends and my parents won't  have a say in it.

Also don't you just hate when you want what you can't have. For me I find it in some of my friends that I wish I could see or hang out with more. There's even a guy! We get along well and all but if we'd ever want to be together(if I even have a chance with him) we'd have to wait until next year. But seriously though my friends are my family and not being able to see them hurts a little, but life goes on.

I'm getting back into my art by doing a project about St. Joan of Arc. Since she is my patron saint I figured it would be a fun thing to do. Here are five examples of my work. I know it's not the best but I have fun doing it.