Black And White

In life there is black and white

There is no Gray

Yet somehow that's where I am

Lost in the Gray zone of life that doesn't exsit

Does that mean that I am non exsistant

If so why do I feel the pain of being lonely

If so why do I feel the pain of being singled out

If so why do know pain in all forms...

There are no answers to these questions I ask

The only answers given are

It is what it is so move on

Or it must be God's will and God's will must be done

If this is God's will for me let it be

But what if it isn't the so Called will of God

Somehow I know I do not suffer alone

Who are the others and why can't I see them

Where do I belong that is my question

Is it in the White light of day

Or in the Black nothingness of night

Here I sit in the Gray I do not belong here

I look at my hands they're dry like chalk

I try to speak but only sand escapes

I thirst for something more then what lies in the Gray

My body looks dead but I am very much alive

I crave life and death both

Perhaps that is why I exsist in the Gray

There is irony in the fact that I exsist in a Place that doesn't