2Evils

2Evils
I hate smoking
I hate the taste and smell of it
I hate the way it makes my body feel
Yet I continuously do it
Since for me smoking is the lesser of 2Evils
And honestly I'd rather part take in the other evil
Since I prefer the sensations of endorphins through my body
Far more that the feeling of my lungs
Getting tighter with every inhale
"I'd honestly rather have you smoke" you say
Because when I smoke
It's a lot harder for you to see the damage I'm doing
And the scars I'm making
Not like I ever intended on showing you though
Since the wounds were my own
But I've come too far now
And as much as I want to bleed my disease out
I settle instead for something that could kill me
It doesn't make a difference to you though either way
Does it???
Since if I cut you'll hate me and if I smoke you'll still hate me
Don't worry though I can hate myself so you won't have to
However for the time being I would appreciate it
If you wouldn't hate me for taking up the lesser of 2Evils