Days Like Mine

I’ve been afflicted with a poison

That no matter how hard I try

It will always be a part of me

Even on good days the thought

Still crosses my mind

All I can think about is if

Anyone would notice or care

I know they would but

It’s just the poison working

Slowly breaking me down

Allowing me to visualize in my head

How easy it would be

I have a plan

And I’m smart enough

Where if I really wanted to

I could be long gone before

Anyone would notice

But that’s not what I want

So I fight and I fight

Battle after battle; day in and day out

And I live to see another day

I feel as if I am above the system

That I myself am capable at any moment

To draw the line and say “I’m done”

Worst of all I know how to play the game

No one would see it coming

I wouldn’t even leave a note this time

It would just be all me

But this whole thing isn’t my style

Or even what I want to be

I have goals that I will accomplish

I just have bad days like everyone else

Only difference is my bad

Is like your nightmare

But that’s what makes me different

From the rest of the population

I’m the one who will take it all

And never let on that inside

I’m crumbling to pieces but

That’s how I’m motivated best

When the pieces stab at my side

And I still wear that smile

Although this might all sound bad to you

This is just another day for me

Welcome to my life